MY 21st birthday ... NOT!

I just read my aunty's blog , and saw that her birthday was coming up ... then I somehow realised that mine was just 3 days after hers , which is in a few days. The best part was , a few minutes after that , I received an sms :

`Happy Birthday David ! '

-Amira

Blur Amira , even at engineering classes

My birthday is coming up in another week, and miss blur confused out the dates . Oh well , at least I'll know who was the 1st to wish me .

Why did I name the post my 21st birthday ? A lot of people usually list things they want or set up a wish list for their birthday . I'm not going to do that . Whatever I want , I can afford it , and if I can't afford it , I'll find ways to make sure I can afford it . My work pays me good but my work isn't as easy as it seems . Statistics say public speaking is people's #1 fear . My work involves me speaking in front of hundreds to thousands of people double/triple my age ...and while doing this I have to make sure they are entertained !.. It's really scary sometimes ...wait , it's scary every single time .

So what do I want that I can't have ? ... I want back my 21st birthday . I want to celebrate it properly , and have a party . It's my 21st birthday , a once in a life time experience ... Too bad it's over. Kind of demanding of me , asking for a 21st birthday party when I'm going to turn 22 isn't it ? .

Oh , well , this year I'm really not looking forward to anything . It even slipped my mind if I hadn 't gone to Yin 's blog .

UTP really stole the supposedly most enjoyable time of my life . Just a word of advice to people out there who are just enrolling in their tertiary education . Make sure you do what you like , and it's even better if you think you're good at the subject ....and seriously , the last person you want to take advice on how you're suppose to continue with your tertiary education is your mom or dad . I regret that decision everyday for the past 4 years and everytime I look at my parents , I somehow get really pissed off and anchor back to them forcing me be in UTP . The most God Forsaken Fucked UP UNI in the whole fucking kingdom ... I think it shortened my life by a good 10 years .

My 22nd birthday wish ?  ...To be less angry ... I just got on Xanax , and I throw tantrums less often . Going to try Valium soon and see whether it's better . Fuuh , I get angry till I get headaches when I think of this .